Insomnia...

And I thought the night before was bad...last night was worse!!! Imagine tossing & turning in bed for 6 whole hours!!! I went to bed at 12.30am...& I only fell asleep at 6.30am...this is by far one of the worst nights ever...never before was I kept up awake til so "early" literally...but thankfully...it wasnt my cough that kept me up all night...somehow there were just too many things going on in my mind...but seriously...itz a terrible feeling not being able to fall asleep especially when u're feeling soooo tired...plus I took 2 flu tablets...hoping that a good night's rest will finally speed up the road to recovery...BUT...I didnt manage to get the desired amount of rest I needed...

I think the main thing that was bogging my mind is my dissertation...I'm still unable to find an appropriate topic & time is simply running out...I just feel like a lost lamb...tryin to find my way...but meeting dead ends all the time...urghhh I just hate it! I really really have to do a good job on this...this is what's going to determine whether i'll be able to secure my 2nd class upper position...& I really really want that...I think that's what's pressurising me as well...e need to do well...not to mention my supervisor's high expectations...& e little help & guidance i'm receiving...well...enuff said...I think its time for mi to buck up...just feel kinda demotivated...i've been trying...but not much results....

somehow things havent been exactly that good recently...not to mention that I've been stuck at home the whole week recovering from my flu...but i'm still not fully recovered yet...this is SO not the way to be spending the last few weeks of my school vacation...& its friday...means one week less to come up with my dissertation topic...urghh...& the sleepless night yesterday is kinda getting to me...& great! there's grasscutting going on outside...which is disturbing the peacefulness of my friday afternoon...

dont step on my toes..........